diff --git a/build/_concats.js b/build/_concats.js index b4fc32b..c6c4757 100644 --- a/build/_concats.js +++ b/build/_concats.js @@ -13,7 +13,7 @@ module.exports = exports = [ 'public/gdb/societal-dysphoria.md', 'public/gdb/sexual-dysphoria.md', 'public/gdb/presentational-dysphoria.md', - 'public/gdb/historical-dysphoria.md', + 'public/gdb/existential-dysphoria.md', 'public/gdb/managed-dysphoria.md', 'public/gdb/impostor-syndrome.md', 'public/gdb/diagnoses.md', diff --git a/public/_gdb-menu.hbs b/public/_gdb-menu.hbs index 976e47c..0816736 100644 --- a/public/_gdb-menu.hbs +++ b/public/_gdb-menu.hbs @@ -13,7 +13,7 @@ Societal Dysphoria Sexual Dysphoria Presentational Dysphoria - Existential Dysphoria + Existential Dysphoria Managed Dysphoria Impostor Syndrome Clinical Diagnoses diff --git a/public/_index-copy.md b/public/_index-copy.md index c409ba2..2f00005 100644 --- a/public/_index-copy.md +++ b/public/_index-copy.md @@ -41,7 +41,7 @@ The purpose of this site is to document the many ways that Gender Dysphoria can 10. [Presentational Dysphoria](/gdb/presentational-dysphoria) -11. [Existential Dysphoria](/gdb/historical-dysphoria) +11. [Existential Dysphoria](/gdb/existential-dysphoria) 12. [Managed Dysphoria](/gdb/managed-dysphoria) diff --git a/public/gdb/existential-dysphoria.md b/public/gdb/existential-dysphoria.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..95b904d --- /dev/null +++ b/public/gdb/existential-dysphoria.md @@ -0,0 +1,25 @@ +--- +date: "2020-01-26T20:41:55.827Z" +title: "How Gender Dysphoria Manifests: Existential Dysphoria" +description: "I don't regret the things I have done, I regret the things I didn't do when I had the chance." +classes: + - gdb +preBody: '_disclaimer' +siblings: + prev: /gdb/presentational-dysphoria + prevCaption: Presentational Dysphoria + next: /gdb/habitus + nextCaption: Habitus +--- + +# Existential Dysphoria + +When you grow up as the wrong assigned gender, you are going to miss out on a lot of things that should have been available to you if only people had known. Sleepovers, camping trips, girl/boy scouts, shopping trips, cheerleading or sports. Events that are co-ed may have very different feelings attached to them based on how you engage with them, like going to prom, religious ceremonies (such as having a bat mitzvah instead of a bar mitzvah), and even just the act of courtship. This dysphoria may also be biological in origin, such as a sorrow over having not given birth to or breastfed your children. + +These missed opportunities can manifest as feelings of loss and hurt. Furthermore, the memories of things you *did* have access to but wouldn't have otherwise, or events that were performed in the wrong gender, can also be a sour point, as these may have awkward attachments. Imagine having to be a groom at your wedding when you know you should have been a bride; growing up dreaming about your perfect wedding, and then playing the wrong role in it. + +Sometimes existential dysphoria can manifest existentially, hitting you with all the grief of the youth lost. All the dating, the teenage antics, the parties, even just having been able to be sexual with the correct parts while your body was young and you had no responsibilities. It is time that can never be gained back. + +Many trans people attempt to recapture some of these lost events, hosting or attending queer proms, organizing sleepovers, performing vow renewals with their spouses, and engaging in common puberty rites of passage like having a mother figure help them shop for their first bra, or having a father figure teach them to shave. However, ultimately, existential dysphoria is something that can never be relieved. You can make new experiences to replace the ones you lost, but you can never turn back the clock. + +This is one of many reasons why affirming trans youth is so important. Boys want to do common boy things, girls want to do common girl things, and non-binary children want to do whatever feels correct to them, and when they miss out they will not forget. diff --git a/public/gdb/historical-dysphoria.md b/public/gdb/historical-dysphoria.md index f297869..495aa3f 100644 --- a/public/gdb/historical-dysphoria.md +++ b/public/gdb/historical-dysphoria.md @@ -11,16 +11,7 @@ siblings: prevCaption: Presentational Dysphoria next: /gdb/managed-dysphoria nextCaption: Managed Dysphoria +redirect: /gdb/existential-dysphoria --- -# Existential Dysphoria - -When you grow up as the wrong assigned gender, you are going to miss out on a lot of things that should have been available to you if only people had known. Sleepovers, camping trips, girl/boy scouts, shopping trips, cheerleading or sports. Events that are co-ed may have very different feelings attached to them based on how you engage with them, like going to prom, religious ceremonies (such as having a bat mitzvah instead of a bar mitzvah), and even just the act of courtship. This dysphoria may also be biological in origin, such as a sorrow over having not given birth to or breastfed your children. - -These missed opportunities can manifest as feelings of loss and hurt. Furthermore, the memories of things you *did* have access to but wouldn't have otherwise, or events that were performed in the wrong gender, can also be a sour point, as these may have awkward attachments. Imagine having to be a groom at your wedding when you know you should have been a bride; growing up dreaming about your perfect wedding, and then playing the wrong role in it. - -Sometimes existential dysphoria can manifest existentially, hitting you with all the grief of the youth lost. All the dating, the teenage antics, the parties, even just having been able to be sexual with the correct parts while your body was young and you had no responsibilities. It is time that can never be gained back. - -Many trans people attempt to recapture some of these lost events, hosting or attending queer proms, organizing sleepovers, performing vow renewals with their spouses, and engaging in common puberty rites of passage like having a mother figure help them shop for their first bra, or having a father figure teach them to shave. However, ultimately, existential dysphoria is something that can never be relieved. You can make new experiences to replace the ones you lost, but you can never turn back the clock. - -This is one of many reasons why affirming trans youth is so important. Boys want to do common boy things, girls want to do common girl things, and non-binary children want to do whatever feels correct to them, and when they miss out they will not forget. +Redirecting... diff --git a/public/gdb/index.md b/public/gdb/index.md index 8d5ccb5..ec7119d 100644 --- a/public/gdb/index.md +++ b/public/gdb/index.md @@ -46,7 +46,7 @@ siblings: 10. [Presentational Dysphoria](/gdb/presentational-dysphoria) -11. [Existential Dysphoria](/gdb/historical-dysphoria) +11. [Existential Dysphoria](/gdb/existential-dysphoria) 12. [Managed Dysphoria](/gdb/managed-dysphoria) diff --git a/public/gdb/managed-dysphoria.md b/public/gdb/managed-dysphoria.md index fe71dec..bb63298 100644 --- a/public/gdb/managed-dysphoria.md +++ b/public/gdb/managed-dysphoria.md @@ -5,7 +5,7 @@ linkTitle: "Managed Dysphoria" description: "I don't regret the things I have done, I regret the things I didn't do when I had the chance." preBody: '_disclaimer' siblings: - prev: /gdb/historical-dysphoria + prev: /gdb/existential-dysphoria prevCaption: Existential Dysphoria next: /gdb/impostor-syndrome nextCaption: Impostor Syndrome diff --git a/public/gdb/presentational-dysphoria.md b/public/gdb/presentational-dysphoria.md index 99369d0..9e350d8 100644 --- a/public/gdb/presentational-dysphoria.md +++ b/public/gdb/presentational-dysphoria.md @@ -7,7 +7,7 @@ preBody: '_disclaimer' siblings: prev: /gdb/sexual-dysphoria prevCaption: Sexual Dysphoria - next: /gdb/historical-dysphoria + next: /gdb/existential-dysphoria nextCaption: Existential Dysphoria classes: - gdb diff --git a/templates/page.hbs b/templates/page.hbs index a0cf926..887b5a0 100644 --- a/templates/page.hbs +++ b/templates/page.hbs @@ -12,6 +12,10 @@ {{/if}} + {{#if meta.redirect}} + + + {{/if}} {{/content}} {{#append 'post-header'}}